Saturday, November 21, 2009

Taken All My Pills, But I'm Still Not Sleepy.

It's 3 AM. I can't sleep. I liked the postsecrets this week. I don't want to go to school anymore. I'm tired of putting up with bullshit. Alex Supertramp and I would have been buds. I hate civilization, and society, and people. I would be happier living my life instead of sleepwalking through it; treading on this beaten down path almost everyone follows.

Fuck conformity, I want to make an impact.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Everywhere I Seem To Be I Am Only Passing Through

Life isn't treating me well. Things that are helping me get through it:
- Godspeed You! Black Emperor, single greatest group I've heard in a while, I'm a big fan.
- My teddy bear.
- Elliott Smith
- My gray beanie
- Attempting to teach myself new things on guitar/learning new songs

The purple hair has yet to happen, but I'm reluctant to spend money and I'm scared I'm going to fuck my hair up. Unrelated, I love David Foster Wallace and I wish I could have seen him speak before he died.

Saturday, October 31, 2009

I Forgot the Start, Use my Hands to Use my Heart.

I haven't written here in ages. In reality, it took me a very long time to come up with the longer blog posts, so I've decided to make them shorter. I think it's a more accurate representation of my personality, I tend to be sort of laconic most of the time.

Things happening:
  • I'm participating in NaNoWriMo, yay me. It should be an interesting journey, my username is knittedbluehat.
  • I've come to the realization that I can't learn anything without listening closely enough. I'm debating on weather I should take a vow of silence to prove my point. Also I feel like if I took a vow of silence it might bring across the point to some that millions of people in the world are stripped of their voice. So why should I not give up mine in their honor?
  • I might dye my hair purple. This is up in the air, I don't know if I have the guts/resources/money to do it but I'll let you know how it goes. Not my whole head, but maybe a few streaks... Maybe my whole head, I don't know. I have decision making problems.
P.S I just read through all my blog posts, either I have changed a lot or wasn't myself on here. Because I sound like a LUNATIC, I whined so much. I hope that I've found enough inner peace within myself to not pour out my problems/petty teenage angst on the internet. I'm a weird kid...

Friday, June 26, 2009

Popcorn From a Cooking Pot

I'm siting on a couch in a hotel that is plopped down in a somewhat questionable area. I have blisters all over my hands, a sunburn, two awesome new CDs and a homemade comic book. I think you need some elaboration. My sister and I took a road trip, from our town in East Bumfuck Connecticut to go to Rochester and see a cool chick play a show at a coffee shop. It was pretty fun, she played an awesome show and the guy who played before her was also really good. I'm jealous, I wish I lived in a place where people played good music at coffee shops. After the show we bought her CD, which she signed- yay. I spent most of the small amount of money I had on CDs and stuff at the show, so for dinner I had the popcorn that came complementary with my hotel room. I searched frantically for a bowl to put my nutritious and well balanced dinner in, but all I came up with was a large cooking pot. It's so big it could fit a small infant inside. Ridiculous.

In other news, I started working on Monday, I don't know if I've mentioned before that I have a really elegant and well paying job this summer. I'm working on a farm. I'm just going to let the internet soak up that information for a little bit. Pretty much it's my job to hoe a whole bunch of shit, like lettuce and onions and stuff. Hence the sunburn and blisters. That's really all I've done so far, my salary is a whole dollar below minnimun wage, go me. I'm not complaining though because I need money and my job does a pretty good job of supplying a meager amount of that for me.

It's 12:15 now, and I should probably get some sleep. We're driving to Ithica tomorrow as a second part of our road trip, and maybe Niagra Falls. Let us all hope I don't trip and fall in. By the way by "probavly get some sleep" I mean that I am tempted to go break into the pool outside (which is closed). I'll let you know how that goes.

Saturday, June 6, 2009

A Tangled Mess of Words

Hi there, I haven't blogged in uh... a while. I've been too busy celebrating the fact that I only have 9 more days of school left. THAT'S IT!!!! Okay so now that I'm done freaking out about that, on to other things. I haven't really discovered anyone new on YouTube since my last post, and absolutely nothing has changed. Big huge shocker there. I have a 15 page Spanish final next week, which I should probably be studying for instead of sitting my butt in bed and blogging about nothing. Not to mention a 2 page essay, and spelling counts. Other than that my life is swell, I got a new laptop and and an iPod touch, which was most definitely if not possibly the highlight of my year. Plus Conor Oberst is coming to NY and CT in July, YIPEE. My life is good, my life is good. Oh AND I got two pairs of Old Navy flip flops, which are super comfortable and amazing.

You might know this amazing man, just maybe. He's only a little famous. His name is uh, Ben Folds, yeah? I get to go see him for my birthday! YES! I lovBen Fe olds, and the venue is huge, so I'm super pumped for that. My last birthday I went to see Death Cab For Cutie, and now I get to see Ben Folds. Someone up there sitting in the sky loves me, I'm telling you. My luck is crazy. Okay that's all I have to say about my current luckiness that life has blessed me with. I'll post again when I have something to say, which I almost never do.

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

I've Tendencies I Can't Seem to Outgrow

Ahhh I'm having a minor meltdown. Like I mentioned in my last post I'm supposed to write a speech, oh but wait I'm not done yet. Not only do we have to write a speech, we have to write a GOOD speech, type it, know it somewhat well, and recite it in front of the class. I'm going to pee my pants and then die. First of all the speech I wrote sucks, I don't know it, and it's not typed. All my fault, although I think YouTube should share some of the blame. I mean I might have written something half decent if I hadn't watched millions of videos as a form of procrastination.

Some good came out of this unfortunate event though, besides the hilarity that will ensue when I stand up at that haunting podium and have nothing to say to my classmates. Maybe I should stand there, shrug my shoulders and say "I'm sorry but I'm no wiser than you are, I don't have any more of an idea about what I'm doing here than you do." I wonder if I would get extra points for being honest. Doubtful. What was I saying? Oh right, good news coming out of my own procrastination. So while on YouTube in an attempt to avoid the task of speech writing and giving, I stumbled across a great musician by the name of Lauren 'O Connel. (LIES I knew about her before). She's one of Julia Nune's friends, and she was in a few videos. I like her lots, she's super talented. Go check out her channel here if you feel so inclined. The title of my blog is one of her song lyrics, but I don't remember which song.

I had a Spanish test today, the reading comprehension was kind of hard, but I think I did okay on it. *Crosses fingers*

Monday, May 4, 2009

Sloppy Firsts

First and foremost, I had a shitty day today and I came home and found a video from Tyler Oakley in my subscriptions box. This made my heart beat faster and my foot jiggle and I sort of jumped up and down because it made me happy. I left a comment telling him he made my day suck less and he responded to it and said "I'm glad :]"

How cute is that?! I love him to pieces. But yeah it's getting too close to summer, I hate school, I don't fit in at all. Only 28 more days! Not to mention I have to prepare a speech for Enligh class based on THIS goddam prompt: "Give your fellow students a piece of advice or words of wisdom."

GIVE MY FELLOW STUDENTS A PIECE OF ADVICE?! If I said what I would like to say to my peers I woul most likely offend several of you. How about I say this to my peers:

1. Stop judging people, you're no better than they are. You aren't compassionate or empathetic at all and you're going to have no friends in your later life.

2. Stop saying offensive things. The words "gay, retard, and faggot" are a thousand times more offensive than me saying fuck ten times in each of my classes. But society doesn't work like that. I would get detention for saying fuck ten times in each of my classes but the kids I go to school with say "gay retard and faggot" at least twice in each class and don't even get told off. This is what is wrong with the world.

3. Shut your mouth about other people, we live in a small town and you think they won't find out you're gossiping about them? Really? How stupid ARE you?

I usually don't talk about how unhappy I am about my school situation on the internet because it sounds petty but I needed to vent. Feel free to not read all that, it's boring, and I am very aware of that fact.

Anywaay on to happier things. I stole my sister's book from her after she was done with it, it's called Sloppy Firsts and I like it a lot so far. I'm going to go read it right after I'm done with my blogging. It's about a girl who is smart and witty and doesn't fit in with anyone at her school except her best friend. Who then moves away, leaving her with people she doesn't know how to connect with, and doesn't want to. This is the exact situation I would be in if either of my best friends left me, only I'm not smart, funny, or witty. It's written in a way that makes me jealous because it's obvious the author is one of those people. Those people who are naturally good at writing, who can sit down and spit out a novel like it's the easiest thing in the world. I think this is the equivalent of having the ability to poop gold. I would prefer to be naturally good at writing personally. Or naturally good at anything now that I think about it. Art, music, writing, SOMETHING.

I have to go write a stupid speech like I'm the wisest person in the world now. Who am I to give these kids advice? It's not like they'll bother listening and even if they do they won't take the advice anyway. How am I supposed to shove a huge elephant of information into their tiny sheltered brains? I have declared this assignment impossible.

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Lyin' in my Bed on Sunday.

It is Sunday, a day for lying in bed all day because your mom went to work which means you have no means of getting anywhere. Yayyy. I made a playlist of sweetafton23's videos and Julia Nunes, and I'm currently listening to it on repeat. I think I'm set for the day.

Let's reflect on last night's adventures shall we? Oh by the way this blog is no longer for school purposes which means I can whine about my personal problems all I want and my teacher can't say ANYTHING. Unless she is still reading this in which case I don't really want to whine about my problems because that would be weird. Oh well I'll take my chances. Okay anyway, I went to a party last night, yayy. I'm not the party type, but my friends are so I obliged. I wore a cute tank top thanks to the awesome of my sister who let me borrow it. A pair of cuttoffs and my chucks completed my party outfit. Fancy, right? It was a bonfire type deal, there was a trampoline which I jumped on consistently for about an hour or so. Trampolines are fun. Music was played, the food was gross so I had some celery sticks and carrots. All in all an uneventful party, but I had fun catching up with a few friends I haven't seen in a while.

Since my last real post which was, let's face it, centuries ago, I have not changed much. Biiig shocker there. One thing HAS changed though which is that THERE ARE ONLY 29 MORE DAYS UNTIL SUMMER. There is no amount of all caps I can use to express my excitement about this number of days. Summer is the greatest time of all times ever, I can act crazy and stupid with my friends. I stay with my sister, and this summer I'm working. On a farm. If you knew me in person you would find this extremely funny. I'm pale and the polar opposite of athletic looking, not someone you would expect to see working on a farm. But I need the money so what can I do? Oh and I plan on posting more often, BEDA made me realize I like blogging lots and should be posting more in the future.

You're what keeps me believin' the world's not gone dead <3

Thursday, April 30, 2009

BUSY.

Ahh I'm so sorry I haven't posted here in forever, I've been busy with BEDA and I'm too blogged out to post the blogs here or to make original posts here. Well anyway it's almost 8, which means I have to run in order to not miss my first period class. I started out my morning by watching Hank's goat birth video. Uhh that was an odd way to start my morning? I'm feeling a little sick...

Thursday, April 2, 2009

BEDA

I am doing BEDA! I won't be posting my blogs on this account, but if you want to read them feel free to do so here. I blog about pointless boring things, as I do on this blog, in case you had not smelled the irony in my blog name. Which is also a spoof of MT Anderson's lovely novel The Astonishing Life of Octavian Nothing, whose life actually is astonishing and captivating. Unlike my own.

I'm having a lot of fun with the whole BEDA thing. It's like a little blogging community and I thuroughly enjoy reading others' blogs, which are about a million times more entertaining than mine. *Gives Maureen Johnson lots of blog love*

Oh by the way if you have no idea what the hell I'm talking about go find out :)

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Julia FREAKING Nunes


Why hello there, internet. How have you been? I've been freakin' fantastic thanks for asking. What did I do on Saturday? Say, I think I went to go see Julia Nunes at The Living Room in NYC. (If you don't know who Julia is go here and find out, you won't regret it)

I went to this amazing night with my sister, and we got there really early because we wanted good seats. To our great surprise, there were already people waiting outside playing the ukulele and such. Julia came and hung out with us a little while later, which was very exciting. I now know she is just as funny and amazing in person as she is in her videos. We had pizza, played songs and laughed a lot for almost two hours before they let us in. It was all great fun.There were a few nerdfighters there as well, and we all freaked out because someone who looked like Hank walked by. It obviously was not Hank, but it was exciting nonetheless.

Then when we finally got in we got pretty awesome seats right in a table at the front, to the left of the stage. She acted silly for a while and made us all laugh very hard, and then she started playing. I have tons of footage on my camera/computer, which I will upload eventually, but I haven't gotten around to it yet. She told us a few really hilarious stories, one about her and her friend Dan spying on a naked girl in the dorm next to hers. I sang throughout the entire show, very loudly, along with many (by many I mean few) others.

Afterwards we got to meet her, say hi and take a monumentally ugly horrible picture of my sister and I. Julia looks adorable, of course. Grrr, silly photogenic celebrity. I am not uploading this picture because it is just that ugly, and you're just going to have to take my word for it. I can't wait to see her again, the emotions in her songs come across so much when you're there in person, it's very touching. Best night, ever, no competition.

Monday, March 2, 2009

Snow Day and Weekend Activities

Today, as you might gather from the title, I had a snow day. I spent most of the day inside my house drinking warm things and reading, but then I had to go out and shovel. Boy, was that fun, I fell about 10 times and I'm 90% sure I have a bruise the size of a plate on my thigh. These bruises are even worse than the ones I developed ice skating with my friends on Sunday. Oh Winter, you're so fun to injure myself in.

Something else that happened this weekend was my mom thought it would be a good idea to loose the keys to our car when we all headed down for some Starbucks. After vetoing my idea of hot wiring the car, I was deposited at the library until my mom could come back and get me with the car. Some good came out of this unfortunate incident, however. I got books! Oh, how I love books. Right now I'm almost finished with The Disreputable History of Frankie Landau-Banks, which was/is amazing and hilarious, I practically feel in love with the main character in this novel, she's a riot. Some other books I got when I was there were: Infinite Jest by David Foster Wallace, Into The Wild, and The Bell Jar. All of which I am very excited to read.

When I was at the library, I was wandering in the Children' Section (which is a lot less creepy than it sounds) and I stumbled upon something magical. That something magical is the Redwall series by Brian Jacques. When I was in elementary school, these were my absolute favorite books in the world, I read all of them. So, naturally, I had to check at least five of them out and got the weirdest look ever from the librarian helping me. I plan to dive into those after I finish the other stack of books I checked out while there.

Saturday, February 21, 2009

Nothing New

So, I haven't really posted anything on here in a while. I could lie and say it's because I've been busy but the truth is I just have absolutely nothing to blog about. I have to present this in front of my class next week, something I'm dreading. The Harry Potter movie is coming out soon (by soon I mean four months)! Which I'm so excited for I can barely type this.

Also coming out soon is Watchmen the movie, which is an amazing graphic novel that I love. My sister and I are going to see the midnight showing because we're that excited for it. You can watch the trailer (hopefully) right under this text. It has Jeffery Dean Morgan in it, who plays Denny on Grey's Anatomy. He is also an amazing actor who I love and have a tiny crush on.





Next thing I'm excited for is LeakyCon. LeakyCon is a Harry Potter convention which this year, is in Boston. I'm not yet registered but I will be soon, hopefully. Not only do I LOVE Harry Potter, but the Vlogbrothers are going as well as a bunch of nerdfighters who I know, which should be tons of fun. If you're interested in attending the convention you can go here to learn more about it. It should be good times, and lots of fun. I'm not sure if Julia Nunes is going, who is one of my favorite YouTube musicians. I think she likes Harry Potter and she lives near Boston, so I'm keeping my fingers crossed that she's going.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Another Great Video

So, I was sick for a few days, as I mentioned in my previous post, and while I'm sick I tend to find new music and new videos on YouTube. This time when I was sick I found one video that just sort of stuck out in my mind because it was so good. I love this song, and it was covered so beautifully, I had to post it.

New PostSecret?! YES.

Okay, so this was the last secret on the page, and it was my favorite. Yesterday I took a surevey on facebook and it said "are you happy with your life right now?" I believe ny response said soemthing along the lines of "oh yeah, i want to stay in this shitty town for the rest of my life..." which was me being sarcastic because I currently hate everything about my life, besides a few things. And to think that there is someone in the world completely content with everything in their life, is astounding. To say that a human being has gotten everything they have ever wished for is an exaggeration, I think. Is it really possible for someone to say that they got everything they have ever wished for? I want to meet this person, very badly.

Sick, Nothing to Say

Today, I am ill. But, I went to school today because I missed that last two days of school, and I didn't want too much make-up work. Today it is wonderfully warm! And by warm of course I mean 40 degrees F. I wore flip flops today to school in celebration of this, and peoples' reactions were something like this.

Them: WHY ARE YOU WEARING FLIP FLOPS?! YOU'RE CRAZY! IT'S WINTER YOU MORON!
Me: They're comfy?

I mean really, what is the big deal? I wear flip flops all year round, they are so comfortable. Ah, well, I suppose I am a bit weird, but you figured people would be used to it by now. I also have a new PostSecret to share, which I'm going to post in a seperate blogpost, after I finish this one. *Groan* I hate not being able to breathe or talk normally... I want to go home now.

Thursday, February 5, 2009

PostSecret


PostSecret is one of my favorite blogs, and I found many secrets recently that I liked, so I'm blogging about them.

On PostSecret, a playlist was posted just below this secret. I have at least four of those songs in my ninja playlist right on over there in the sidebar, that's all I'm going to say.

(I'm deeply considering that the person who made that playlist is some sort of music genuis)











I hate where I live probably more than anything else in my life, so this secret meant a lot to me. On the back it read "I guess it's not where I am but WHO I am." Which probably holds true, but I am choosing to ignore it because I've spent all my time imagining how awesome it will be to escape from here; I don't think I'll ever let that go. I guess I'll find out when I leave, finally.

The Office

So, on Super Bowl Sunday, there was an hour long episode of The Office (my favorite TV show). You can go watch it on hulu if you feel the need to, which you should. It was hilarious, I found myself laughing out loud more than once, especially during the cold open. I really liked the ineraction between a lot of the characters, especially Jim and Pam. I am a total fangirl when it comes to Jim and Pam romance. It was the best episode so far in season 5 by far, which isn't too great overall, but this episode rocked!

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button


It's no secret to those who know me that I'm not a huge fan of movies or TV. I'm pretty much books and internet-centric. Well, a little while ago I went to see The Curious Case of Benjamin Button with my mom and sister (I'm so cool, and you know it) and it was SO good. I'm really picky about movies, I pretty much have four favorites. Those being Once, Garden State, Little Miss Sunshine, and Juno. I think Benjamin Button just might have to be added to that list. The acting was amazing, Brad Pitt is insanely hot, the makeup was good, the screenwriting was excellent, and I just loved the whole thing. People were complaining about the length of the movie "WAAH it was so long, I couldn't sit through it!" It honestly depresses me that humans can't sit through a three- hour-long movie. That's the kind of thing that leads me to believe the scenario in Fahrenheit 451 might become true soon.

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

The Environment

Today, I am blogging about the environment.


So here's the throwdown:

Humans kind of suck, and since the Industrial Revolution, we have been the cause of a crapload of greenhouse gasses, which depletes the ozone layer. Since the ozone layer is what keeps the ultraviolet rays from like, killing us all, this is not good. It also causes sea levels to rise, the arctic to shrink, and a bunch of other horrible things.


Here's what you can do:

So to prevent the amount of greenhouse gasses you personally contribute to the environment dying, you can start with your car. You can get an environmentally sound car from really any dealership. They are made by Toyota, Honda, Volvo, and too many other ones for me to mention. It would be even better if you stopped using your car all together and ride a bake, walk, or use public transportation. Go look at a blog about clean technology called ecogeek (they also have a twitter). It's mainly run by Hank Green, one half of the vlogbrothers. Other things you can do are recycle, compost, use cloth grocery bags, and other little things like turning off lights when you're not using them.

The world is going to end eventually, but it would be nice if your great great grandkids didn't have to live when that happens. So you should do your part to save it.

Friday, January 30, 2009

Ninjas, Music, and Weather.

Like my ninja? Look how awesome he is... I love him. I have not yet decided on a name for him, something my classmates can help me with I hope. I will slowly add more music as I go along, right now I only have favorites but I expect that it will steadily grow much larger in the next few months.

Best wishes!

(I am OBSESSED with that Mountain Goats song)

Why I'm Angry Today.

So, for my project I'm supposed to include an "audio" section. I was GOING to include a playlist that's plays from this ninja icon but it's blocked on my school computer. Of course, Facebook isn't blocked but a music website is, our internet filter is quite obviously in need of medication. I'll add the playlist when I get home I suppose, just one more thing to add to all the homework I already have. *Groan*, at least it's Friday.

Monday, January 26, 2009

Everyone Loves Monday!

Monday is the day of the week with the highest suicide rate, and this is why. Let's hope Obama can fix some of this mess our country is currently in.

On a lighter note, LOST came back last week! Oh how I love LOST... Also some other good news is that Obama is limiting the amount of greenhouse gasses that come from cars in 13 states! Read the article here.

Sunday, January 25, 2009

The Mountain Goats.

There are no words to describe my love for this song.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Spanish Spanish and More Spanish.

Present Progressive Tense:

Hablar- to talk
hablo
hablas
habla
hablamos
hablais
hablan

Present Prgressive Tense of Hablar
etoy hablando
estas hablando
esta hablando
estamos hablando
estais hablando
estan hablando

You create the present Progressive tenses by adding the appropriate jerrend onto the verb. For ER/IR verbs it's the ending "iendo" and for AR verbs it's "ando"

DECIR-to say or tell
digo
dices
dice
decimos
decis
dicen

I say that the bank is next to the airport.
Digo que el banco esta cerca del aeropuerto.

SALIR- to leave to to go out
salgo
sales
sale
salimos
salis
salen

Prepostional Phrases to Express Location (Page 95 in the textbook)
cerca de
detras de
delante de
al lado
a la izquierda
entre
a la derecha de
lejos

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Oh Spanish Midterms, You're so Fun.

So, last week my tech. teacher asked me to post things on this blog that can be useful to my classmates. As we have a Spanish midterm coming up, I decided to post the study guide from the last few weeks.

This is the most reccent thing we've gone over in class:

Felling with the verb ESTAR
Estoy deprimido
Estas alegre
Esta triste

Acabar+de+infinitive
They just ate
Acaban de comer

Venir-to come (Stem changing verb)
Vengo
Vienes
Viene
Venemos
Veneis
Vienen

Jugar- to play (Stem changing "u" to "ue")
Juego
Juegas
Juega
Juegamos
Juegais
Juegan

Saber- to know
Se
Sabes
Sabe
Sabemos
Sabeis
Saben

Direct Object Pronouns
I read the book.
Yo leo el libro.
Yo leo lo.

Me, te, lo, la, nos, os, los, las.

I want to read it
Yo lo quiero leer.
OR
Yo quier leerlo.

We also went over weather vocabulary, which is on page 79 in our textbooks.
Happy studying! I'll post more as we progress in class :)

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Paper Towns!



Book: Paper Towns
Author: John Green

Background on the book: Quentin Jacobsen goes on a wild adventure with Margo, his neighbor and childhood crush. When Margo runs away the next day with no word to anyone, Q uses clues she's left behind to find her. On his way to finding her, he discovers she isn't the person anyone believes her to be.

Why you should buy this book: Paper Towns includes the following: Wit that clearly makes anyone who reads it think that the idea of trying to outwit John Green is fictional, poetry, mystery, love, a road trip, and omnictionary. I myself have read the book four times and it does not get any less amazing. The first book I read by John Green was Looking for Alaska, which will always remain my favorite but An Abundance of Katherines and Paper Towns tied for a very close second. This book had me laughing on one page and crying on the next, and is clearly written assuming there are teens who read thoughtfully and carefully. Instead of assuming that teens are incapable of understanding complex ideas, and thinking about them in a deep manner. So, to sum it all up: GO BUY THIS BOOK IT IS FREAKING FANTASTIC.

Here are some of my favorite quotes along the way:

"It's always seemed so ridiculous to me, that people would want to be around someone because they're pretty. Like choosing breakfast colors based on color instead of taste"- Oh, how I wish that every teenager spoke and felt this way.

"It's more impressive from a distance, I mean. You can't see the wear on things, you know? You can't see the rust or the weeds or the paint cracking. You see the place as someone once imagined it."- There are no words to describe my love for this quote.

"You're my designated driver! Yes! You are so designated! I love that you answered! That's so awesome! I have to be home by six! And I designate you to get me there! YESSSSSSS!"- While reading this at 3 AM I woke up the inhabitants of my house laughing. Oh drunk Ben, you made my day.

"And finally it was too much. I could not talk myself down from the feeling, and the feeling became unbearable. I reached in deep to the recesses of my locker. I pushed everything - photographs and notes and books - into the trash can. I left the locker open and walked away. As I walked past the band room, I could hear through the walls the muffled sounds of "Pomp and Circumstance." I kept walking. It was hot outside, but not as hot as usual. It was bearable. There are sidewalks most the way home, I thought. So I kept walking. And as paralyzing and upsetting as all the never agains were, the final leaving felt perfect. Pure. The most distilled possible form of liberation. Everything that mattered except one lousy picture was in the trash, but it felt so great."- For some odd reason that I can't put my finger on, this quote reminds me of Holden Caufield.

"Maybe it's more like you said before, all of us being cracked open. Like, each of us starts out as a watertight vessel. And these things happen— these people leave us, or don't love us, or don't get us, or we don't get them, and we lose and fail and hurt one another. And the vessel cracks open in places. And I mean, yeah, once the vessel cracks open, the end becomes inevitable. Once it starts to rain inside the Osprey, it will never be remodeled. But there is all this time between when the cracks start to open up and we finally fall apart. And it's only in that time that we can see one another, because we see out of ourselves through the cracks and into others through theirs. When did we see each other face-to-face? Not until you saw into my cracks and I saw into yours. Before that, we were just looking at ideas of each other, like looking at your window shade but never seeing inside. But once the vessel cracks, the light can get in. The light can get out."- I am again rendered speachless

"The physical space between us evaporates. We play the broken strings of our instruments one last time....Yes, I can see her almost perfectly in this cracked darkness."- The perfect ending.

P.S. You should also go read John Green's funny blog and go watch all his hilarious youtube videos with his brother Hank.







Monday, January 12, 2009

The Purpose of This Blog

I'm currently sitting in my tech class typing this (while facebooking at the same time) and I was thinking about what to put in this blog. Considering I'm being graded on this because technically it's a project, I'm triyng to figure out what my teacher and peers want to read about; it's proving to be very difficult. I've landed on blogging about things I enjoy: music, books, youtube, other blogs, etc. So this project should be fairly easy.... I hope.